#just crying there in corner nvm

[burrowingdweller]

Hi!! I've noticed that you like a specific kind of fictional men when it comes to the VIBE they give otherwise physical look doesn't matter to you (like this is such a weird and funny ask but I noticed this and thought I'd say cuz I'm curious and why not 😂😂) but I'd still like to ask what makes you attracted to specific characters? What do you like to see in fictional men? I've noticed that u like ones that have a melancholy vibe to them....Also if you have any ocs show us please!! Have a nice day ^^

I was thinking about your question for a couple of days actually, like it's really good and I wanna answer it, but it's just so hard to come up with smth for me now... I think you're very right about melancholic vibe, even if character doesn't have it showed up straight - well, I will add as much as I need x)

About the ocs - I don't have lots of them and I don't draw them much, but you can find most of my stuff by "my ocs art" or "original character" tag

[this-aint-massachusetts]

Istg- my goofy ass is always wondering why I feel like shit and then I remembered I’ve only eaten lemon chicken soup, water, and gum for the past week

[phagodyke]

i feel like every decision i have to make atm is rock and a hard place devil and the deep blue sea and i cant fucking deal with it i can feel the wires fusing + cogs screeching to a halt. total mental shutdown

[expelliarmus444]

If texting were a thing in the 1890s: pt 3

Sebastian: OMINIS COME INTO THE BATHROOM RN Ominis: uhm...why Sebastian: there's a centipede cornering me HELP Ominis: you fight giant spiders, goblins, trolls, and inferi and you're telling me you draw the line at...centipedes? Sebastian: could you just shut up and come kill it Ominis: ugh fine

Ominis: Sebastian texted earlier asking me to kill a bug for him in the bathroom. I get there and I hear him literally crying in the corner like a baby. thought i should share that with you MC: ew omg i would've screamed Ominis: ???????? you guys have literally KILLED people MC: no their blood is on ranrok's hands not mine Ominis: bruh

Duncan: hey MC ;) was wondering if you'd wanna..idk go out some time MC: uhm no thank you Duncan: this is what i get for being nice to a mudblood MC: EXCUSE ME? MC: bro duncan hobhouse called me a slur bc i don't wanna go out with him wtf Ominis: interesting. Ominis: hobhouse. Duncan: who is this Ominis: if i hear you ever mutter a word towards MC again i will freeze you, slice you into pieces, and feed you to a pack of starving mongrels. actually if you even breathe in her direction i will throw you into the lake with a bunch of dugbogs and let them rip you to shreds. am i clear? Duncan: omg ??? Ominis: better be clear. don't tell anyone about this. anyway fuck off i'm blocking you now. MC: did you threaten duncan????? Sebastian: no but i'm jealous of whoever did MC: wtf???? who could it have been then MC: wait

MC: Ominis wtf Ominis: what MC: threatening duncan is soooo not like you Ominis: wdym i hate him Ominis: i'd do it again. i'd pay to do it. i'd spend the rest of my life doing hard physical labor on a goat farm until my body is about to give out if it means getting to shit on him one last time MC: and here i thought you were doing something nice for me Ominis: that too ig

Sebastian: OMINIS HELP IN THE UNDERCROFT MC: OMINIS ITS SERIOUS HELP PLS OMG Ominis: what happened????? Sebastian: centipede in the undercroft Ominis: are you fucking joking this is ridiculous Sebastian: PLEASE Ominis: no Sebastian: why not Ominis: quit being a baby and just kill it bro Ominis: acting like ur not grown with a sweater of chest hair on you is crazy MC: this is me finding out Sebastian grows chest hair MC: O _ O ew Sebastian: now you really have to kill it since you wanna air me out like that Ominis: no. MC: you won't do it for me? Ominis: nvm im coming Sebastian: WTF???????? Ominis: be there in 5

[drunkonh20]

Is There Someone Else?

I had a vision okay, but y'all do not judge me I didn't write a single piece of fiction in a WHILE (more like years but nvm) mkay. I Will get better I PROMISE ;_;

It has been a quiet night on the streets of Zaun, if you can call it that. You found yourself in The Last Drop drinking your heavy heart out. Tho it wasn't like you, no. You were, as people called you "sunshine" of this city. The way your eyes would light up or the way your laugh brings joy into a room, some would say that it makes people forget about the horrible things in this world. What could have happen to make you feel so alone and empty tonight that you could only drown your sorrows in a bottle of strong liquor.

Her.

"Ah... You really are an idiot Y/N." You whispered as you poured the last drop into your throath. It nade you think of the times you spent together, it made you realise that maybe some things are nit meant to be.

'No, no we can work iz through, it surely is not like that...' You think to yourself looking up to ask for another bottle of that bitter sweet brown liquor.

Meanwhile she was looking everywhere for you, the rain did not stop her. She started from the begining of the Undercity and will look behing every single corner of this city until she finds her peace. Until she finds you. Sevika knows every single inch of this place, yet she still can not put her finger on it, where are you, her light in this world, right now when she needs you the most?

'She is alright, she has to be!' Sevika thought to herself. If someone gives you a dirty look or even touches you in the wrong way, she will, gladly get her hands dirty just to protect what is hers. People need to understand that you are hers. And there is no other way around it. She passes by the beloved bar in the city and stops in her track. Could you really be there and if you were what on earth would be doing there when she told you a million times not to go without her. The thought of that you are alone there with god knows how many nasty and lust hungry men made her blood boil. As she slams the door open, there you are. Your head in the palm od your hand as your elbow is on the bar while some bold thinking man is pulling you closer to him. Boy did he now know what is he up for now.

"Y/N!" You slowly turn your head at the main door of the bar. Your vision is fog like but that voice. You know that voice from the bottom od your heart. Hearing the heavy foot steps a face bright as day gets inches away from you. "You better stay away from my girl or else I will tear you into pieces." She says to the man realizing the mistake he made. Yes, it really is her. She takes you into her arms and takes you out of the place far away so you two can sort things out.

"I have my own two feet thank you." you say as she takes you down. "Jet clearly they are out of function my dear." She says, her eyes not leaving you. She takes a deep breath, strong smell od liquor hit her. "Have you been drinking? I told you now to drink while you are alone, do you know what could have happen with all those assholes next to you?" She snapped at you, you finally lost it.

"Oh, you are the one to talk? What about you going to the brothel behind my back and being there god knows for how long? Did you not think one second of me, do you even fucking care about me and my feelings? I have been nothing but good and patient with you and I find out by someone else that you are fucking someone else behind my back??"

It was like the sky broke its heart for you, how much thunder and rain it poured after you started crying. Sevika was shocked. Who filled your mind with such dark spots. It was true that she went to the brothel, but not for pleasure, no never for pleasure after being with you. She was looking for someone, work related. She kneeled infront of you wanting to take you into her big, strong arms but you got away. She looks at your angelic face, oh that sweet face that she wakes up every morning to. She could not forgive herself for not telling you about the situation. Sevika doesn't want to worry you with her dirty work that she does for Silco. She wanted to keep you out of it as much as possible.

"Tell me Sevika, is there someone else or not?" You ask never letting your eyes leaving her. She takes your beautiful face into her hands and kisses with all of the love on the world. The moment that could last for a life time. When you fist saw Sevika, she seemd rough and intimidating, someone would say she is just scary looking with her bionic arm that was always covered by red cloack. "Why on earth would I have anyone else when I got all I need infront of me my love?" She askes you while gently caressing your cheekbone. "I was going to the brothel, yes, but for work my love. I was looking for someone Silco wants me to find. I heard that person was a regular there and I had to look. I'm sorry my beloved for not telling you about it." She kneels infront of your standing body, placing her head on your stomach.

You stoke her brown hair, feeling your heart lighten up. She looks up at you and smiles. Oh how you love to see her smile, it feels you with so much joy. She stands up pulling you to her, kissing you again, her bionic hand pulling you even closer to her. It was a moment that you two never really had and somehow you enjoy it. There was no excuse for why you were mad at her and she understood, although she would never in a million years hurt the love od her life. She would never hurt you. The kiss got more intense as a slight moan escapes your lips. You could feel her smirk in the moment as she enjoy hearing your little whimpers and moans.

"C'mon beautiful, let's go home." She says as she carries you bride style, her cloack covering you so you won't get cold, knowing damn well you need to get your strenght up for whats waiting for you when you both get home. ;)

[screampied]

BACK W/ DRUG DEALER TOJI I KNOW YOU WOULD SEE THE VISION THE SHOTGUNNING OH MY GOD YES he would look so good w/ a blunt hanging from his mouth GOD

he drives a blacked out hellcat 😋😋 i’m feral imagining him backing out with one hand on the headrest and his using the palm of his hand to move the wheel

he has MONEYYYYYY he spoils you sm he’ll buy you whatever you want but he’s ALWAYS working cause he spends all his money quickly 😭😭

he’s lowkey a red flag but he’s your red flag 🫶 he’ll randomly text u high asf with some sappy shit and then the high will wear off and he’ll be like “nvm i was high as shit” then he’ll get high again and be like “nvm i’m being fr”

BYEEEEE THE HELL CAT IS INSANE? where’d he get the bands to buy that 😭😭👎. jk don’t play w toji, man’s is strapped

ur so right he’d look soooo sexy w a fat blunt sticking out the corner of his mouth. he’d prob wear his black compression tee or that sweater ngh. WHEN MEN DO THAT THING WHEN THEY GO IN REVERSE ???? toji def does that oh i’m gonna be sick

SUGAR DADDY TOJI ERAAAAA im crying. an au where he’s …. not broke 🙂‍↕️💖 he’s my pook so i can slander him </3 real, he doesn’t know how to save omg. sugar daddy toji would def call us his babygirl

LMAOOO HES AN ENTIRE RED FLAG TO THE T. but it’s okay bc it’s toji 💘. high toji probably sends random voice notes of him just talking about how much he misses our pussy LMAO.

[tragically-jane-doe]

I FORGOT THERES NEW EPISODES FUCK

In-a 💖💖💖💖 Thanx for finally looking out for your lil sis

Oh yeah I forgot our man is in a house fire

Get your twink ass outta my house

I'm so happy about in-a being in hee-joo corner my girl needed another ally

Fuck these parents

I'm sorry I can't get over how they're clearly in PJs but sa-eon mom is rocking around in heels

Thank God they were just red herring us in EP 8

The driving pass scene is just so fucking silly

Sang woo in the corner sad eyeing his first love holy shit

"Tell me how to hate you" "tell me how not to love you" continues to be lines that BREAK me

Hee-joo is really like every girl having a lil melt down in the bathroom

I too like to do gorey lil crafts Mr og sa-eon

Okay grandpappy go off

If this man starts over explaining how maybe he might not actually be paik sa-eon and hee-joo is just that's been known I will be so happy please

Sa-eon having to be nice to sang woo now that he saved him im loving it

Nah idk if she's obsessed enough she only sent like 100 txts and a millon voice mails

How much do you think he wanted to start kicking his feet twirling his hair when he saw all the texts and VM

IGRL YOU CANT JUST DISAPPEAR HES GONNA LEAVE THE HOSPITAL LOOKING FOR U

In-a baby girl what Cha doinggg

I TOLD YOU HEE-JOO I TOLD YOU

"I've lived because of you, ive endured because of you" is quickly taking second place

Dw babe ik still insanely downbad for you

Guys I think they like eachother

such a fucking baddie here to cause some mischief

THOSE ARTS AND CRAFTS ARE LOVELY

I love Sang woo and Yu-ri dynamic

Never knew stalking your wife could be hot huh

SIR THAT IS DOUBLE STANDARD LET HER STALK YOU

Poor Mr Kang HE JUST CARES SO MUCH

Hee-joo watch out Mr kang is coming for your mans

HER DAD DOING THE SIGHS WHILE WATCHING AHHH HES SO PROUD

The traumaaaa

OH MY GOD WE WERE RIGHT

Stop they're so fucking cute it's sicking

REAL SA-EON GETTING HIS ASS BEAT TODAY

MY BOY MR KANG GOT RANCID VIBES FROM THIS MOFO

NVM Do-jae is a lil bitch who doesn't understand he's dealing with a actual sociopath

ITSA TRAP MY BOY A TRAP

Peek a boooo my boo

WHY DO-JAE WHY DID YOU START THIS

Ooooh honey sweetie baby child Do-jae DO-JAE BAYBE

Rip my psycho dude

Oh damn he's been at this for ages

Goddamn mommy dearest much

HE'S KILLED CHILDREN AS A CHILD MAAM

I don't like agreeing with sa-eon dad but the man's has a point

Cool he's not dead TIME TO REPENT FOR YOUR SINS SWEETIE

Hes not angry just disappointed

Oh sang woo baby going thru the trenches

Wouldn't it be crazy if all of this could've been avoided if the real sa-eon didn't get seen by the lil brother

HEE-JOO GETTING HER BACK BONE

Did this mother fucker send his own DNA report to in-a just so he could marry hee-joo Jesus Christ

Yes ma'am push his ass down

Eeeeeeeee

Again this man wants her to dom him so bad

He's such a fucking idiot I love him

HES CRYING FUCK

Y'all im losing it THEYRE SO LAME AND IN LOVE

DID EVERYONE KNOW HEE-JOO COULD TALK IN THIS FAMILY JESUS CHRIST

I still can't tell if the step daddy is trash or not?

NVM he's showing up with a gun to a memorial I'm gonna say he isnt

But like he isn't great either but better than sa-eon parents at least

Hee-joo baby girl where r u u can't be dead just no theres like 2 more episodes

Ty Mr reporter man I love you

Wow everyone finding out that they're married like this damn

They cliff hanger me again fuck

I WAS BORN TO MEET YOU

They really pulled no punches huh

I'm sorry where's my here's what to look forward to previews?!?! HOW AM I TO COPE

I know she's not dead but I would like to see her not being dead

Anyways happy new years

[slutforleeminho]

I licked it so it’s mine • Choi Yeonjun

It was currently 9 pm, you were lying in your bed scrolling threw instagram and flipping through stories. Stopping the fast tapping of your finger when something caught your eye. It was a simple white background with the words “I miss her” in the middle. Glancing up at the top left corner of your screen to see who was in their feels, your eyes widened when you saw your best friends name. Yeonjun. You sat up in your bed and starred at the picture a little longer hoping a clue would suddenly appear. Who was he missing? Who was he thinking about at 9 o’clock at night? There was a strange feeling in the pit of your stomach that you’ve never felt before. But you couldn’t put your finger on what it was. Should you message him? Ask him who it was, if he was okay. Wait…. why would you do that. It’s not like it was you, and asking and receiving an answer would just break your heart.

But there was no one else to blame but yourself. You shouldn’t have let yourself fall for your best friend. But how could you not? He was kind and gentle. Always there for you when you needed him most. There so you could cry on his shoulder when your ex cheated on you or when one of your family members suddenly passed away. He was like your lifeline. You could call him in the dead of night and he would be at your front door in five minutes. You couldn’t ask for a better friend. But he would never feel the same. He saw you as a little sister, someone to take care of.

A familiar ding came from your phone, pulling you from your thoughts. You didn’t need to look to know who it was.

Yeonjun🫶🏻: hey are you still awake?

You: yes Jun im not a grandma. It’s only 9:15

Yeonjun🫶🏻: wouldn’t be the first time you knocked out before 10

You: so did you text me just to make fun of my messed up sleep schedule or did you need something?

Yeonjun🫶🏻: yeah but you seem grumpy so nvm

You: yeonjun……..

Yeonjun🫶🏻: I was gonna see if I could come over but if not that’s fine

You were surprised for a moment but then realized you’ve done this dozens of times. Him coming over when he was lonely or just bored. So you typed out your answer and hit send and then got up to straighten up the house a little before he arrived.

You: you know you don’t have to ask jun..

Little did you know yeonjun was sitting on his couch starring at the picture you and him took when you both went to an amusement park together. He was reminiscing all the memories of that day. How he had to beg you to go in the first place, and then had to drag you to the roller coaster he wanted to ride so badly. How you held onto his hand and screamed, squeezing it a little tighter when it went a little to high for your liking. How afterwords you told him you hated him, but held onto his arm for the rest of the day. How you looked up at him with those eye. Those beautiful eyes. He dropped his phone onto to the couch and rubbed his face. How could he be so stupid? Falling for you like he even had a chance. You were so out of his league. You deserved someone better, someone who could take care of you in the ways he couldn’t. He felt like an idiot. And on top of that he posted that stupid quote on his story. Like it would do him any good, like you would magically know he was talking about you and you would run to be with him. He was so foolish. All he wanted to do was be by your side, to hug you, and kiss you, and just bask in your presence. He didn’t even know he texted you until he felt his phone vibrate against his thigh.

You threw on an old t-shirt that you’re pretty sure is yeonjuns that he must have forgotten here during one of your many sleepovers. It came to your mid thigh so you didn’t even bother putting any shorts on. And then the doorbell rang. You ran to the front door, almost tripping over a pair of shoes you must have left out. Opening the door yeonjun looked up and into you eyes. But you were to focused on the bag in his hand.

“Did you get food?”

“Yeah” he held up the bag so you could see the logo on the side. It was from your favorite Chinese restaurant. And you swore your heart exploded. No matter how many times he got it for you, you would always be surprised he remembered it was your favorite.

“You didn’t have to do that” you said as you stepped back, opening the door wider so he could enter. He placed the bag on the coffee table in the center of your living room. Taking off his his jacket and throwing it over the back of the couch. You weren’t sure if you should bring up what you saw on his story but you decide to just ask. After all he is still your friend and you want to make sure he’s okay.

“So.. is everything all right” you asked nonchalantly as you walk into the living room and sitting down. Looking up at him, you pat the spot beside you for him to sit beside you. And he does, but not before he starred down at his shoes completely avoiding eye contact with you. He looks….. nervous, but why?

“Jun?” He finally looks up at you. Eyes meeting each others and his heart instantly melts. You look so worried, he shouldn’t have posted that. Worry did not suit your angelic features.

“Yeah I am” he brightly smiles at you and you feel like he’s telling the truth. You don’t wanna pry too much and make him uncomfortable so you drop the subject completely.

“Okay. Do you wanna watch something while we eat?”

“Not really. I feel like I haven’t seen you in forever, I just wanna talk to you.”

“Aww that’s so sweet but a little dramatic, we just saw each other the other day” you laughed. Which made a wide grin spread across his fox like features.

“That’s long enough”

You began getting the food out of the bag and placing the containers on the table. You both started eating and enjoying each other’s company, talking about anything and everything under the sun. How your coworker won’t stop hitting on you and asking you out. And that you went and got an oil change earlier in the day. Yeonjun didn’t like that very much, saying he could’ve done it or at least gone with you. He told you about a party that he went to and got black out drunk and heard from his friends that they had to carry him home. In which you laughed at the image in your head of drunk yeonjun stumbling out of there with his arms wrapped around his friends necks.

You’re sure you’ve been talking for hours and one glance at the clock proves you right. It was now 12 in the morning.

“Yah it’s past my bedtime” you whined out throwing your back against the couch, your head resting on the cushion. You were both on the floor now leaning against the bottom of the couch.

“Oh you old lady.” He rolled his eyes at your words.

You found yourself staring at him and his big brown eyes. His smooth skin and perfect lips. You wanted those lips so bad. You wanted to grab him by the collar and smash you lips against his, and make him feel all the love you had for him. Make him forget about that other girl. You pushed those thoughts down and looked around for something to distract yourself with. Your eyes landing on the last egg roll in the container and you reached out to grab it but felt a light smack against you hand.

“Hey! What was that for?” You glared at him.

“Maybe I wanted it” he looked at you all offended.

You snatched it as fast as you could but he grabbed your wrist before you could bite it. You ended up physically fighting over this egg roll. Pushing and pulling, smacking at each other until you finally freed your arm from his grasp. You quickly brought it to your mouth and licked it.

“Hah I licked it so it’s mine now” you stuck your tongue out at him.

Yeonjun doesn’t know what comes over him. Before he even thinks about the consequences he grabs your free hand and brings it to his mouth, repeating the ministration, licking your hand.

The shock on your face made him regret all of his life decisions. He wanted to throw himself of of a bridge. But he couldn’t turn back now, he’s going to see this through.

“W-what was that? Why did you..”

“I licked you so does that mean your mine?” He looked you dead in your face.

“I-well I-“ you were speechless. What is happening? Is he asking you to be his? Is this a prank? Where are the cameras? This can’t be. He doesn’t like you like that, does he? You finally swallowed the lump in your throat and spoke.

“Are you-“

“Yes” he interrupted.

“You like…. me?” You asked hesitantly.

“I do”

“But your story… you said you missed someone”

“I was talking about you.”

You thought your heart was going to explode at the rate it was beating.

“Oh”

“That’s it?” He giggled at your surprised state.

“I don’t know what to say. I can’t believe this is actually happening” you admitted.

“So you like me too?” He asked, silently praying you’ll say yes.

“Yeah” you say shyly, looking down at your lap.

He took his hand under your chin to lift your face until you were looking into each others eyes.

“Can I kiss you?” His voice barely above a whisper.

“Yes Jun, please” you begged.

He inched closer, eyes locked on your lips, while yours were closed, patiently waiting for your lips to finally connect. When they did it was everything you imagined and so much more. His lips were soft and fit with yours perfectly. He was so gentle with you. He moved his hand to cup your cheek, his thumb lightly rubbing under your eye. When he pulled away to catch his breath he had the biggest smile on his face. Which made your lips curl up in to a similar one.

It was silent for a moment until he spoke.

“So can I take you on a real date?”

“Like I said earlier Jun, you know you don’t have to ask”

Well… this was really random but I got this idea and couldn’t stop thinking about it. I’m not really sure if I like it or not but hopefully you enjoy it:) (it was not proofread)

Taglist: @yumiblogs

[hogans-heroes]

If Bucky’s even half conscious he’d be trying to reassure Buck which just make Buck feel worse.

okay this kills me bc it's so true?? bucky might be beaten to within an inch of his life and running a fever, but he's still going to be saying he's fine and, even more heartbreaking, he's more worried about buck than himself. he's shivering and barely able to stand, but one of the first things he asks buck is: "are you okay?"

buck might not know exactly what happened (as long as bucky's even semiconscious he avoids talking about it) but bits and pieces sneak out during his fever, and it's horrifying to hear. all of this just makes buck more protective; it takes everyone else in their cabin to convince him to let them help take care of bucky. even after bucky recovers, buck stays close to him. he doesn't tell bucky what he heard, but every so often bucky will look up and see buck watching him with this shattered look in his eyes.

"what?" he asks, trying to smile.

buck smiles in response, but it doesn't reach his eyes. "nothing."

but he shifts closer to bucky anyway, and if bucky is surprised when buck holds his hand and doesn't let go for the rest of the evening, he doesn't let it show.

nvm me, i'm just in the corner crying over them 😭

Fam what are you doing to me I’m still trying to recover and you send this to me??? 😭

But you’re so very right. Bucky would try to so hard to protect Buck from this and it would break anyone’s heart to see. Buck would try to protect him too, having to sneak away once in a while to shed tears where Bucky can’t see. It becomes apparent to the other guys they have to take care of both of them, like forcing Buck onto his bunk to sleep for a few hours while someone else puts the cold compress on Bucky’s head for a change. After a million promises to wake Buck up if anything happens Buck still can’t sleep. Everyone takes shifts watching Bucky until his fever breaks at least.

Of course he would want to hold Bucky’s hand, my hearrrrt 😭 Bucky might not say anything but he appreciates the comfort and squeezes Buck’s hand when no one is looking.

This has me thinking about seeing all this through the eyes of one of the other guys, specifically the one assigned to “take care” of Buck since they quickly realize that’s a necessity. (I’d love for it to be Brady and I’m gonna guess he’s in the same camp because he went down with Bucky?)

[weirdcat1213]

ok i guess this is it

the end of the road

i may do an actual post about it later but fellas, its been an honor suffer read with all of you :3 the meta, memes and reactions? priceless

thank you @revenantghost for bringing us together for the best group activity ever: suffering and crying in a corner :D

lets go one more time

vol 14 thoughts

chap 1:

-THIS ONLY HAS 8 CHAPTERS WTF

-longer than he has been alive? oh thats adorable

-"that is how...i lived my life" why do i feel so sad all of a sudden

-OH YIKES WHAT

-ok damn i get that now, legato is really fast damn

-again, when did vash's coat turn black

-oh shit chronica no

-pls leave vash alone legato

-for some reason vash feel really quiet right now. thinking back to other fights, those didnt feel as quiet as this one, i wonder why

-yeah,,,,sadly i dont think he can control his body either...

-oh ok i didnt notice that the 1st time but thats so interesting. spoilers for 98 but in that one vash's decision is quick, a decision he made against the ropes. he thought about ways to avoid it and then gave up at the last second. here however, he has been thinking about it the moment he started to fight legato i think. like only one man could survive that encounter. he knew from the start it was either the plan (cuz cmon he doesnt care about whether he lives or dies) or legato. at least in 98 the decision was in a quiet setting, imagine giving up your values (and with them a huge part of what you think is your heart) while you are fighting to the death

-HE DOESNT WANT TO DO THIS BRO LEAVE HIM ALONE

-GEESUS oh god no. is he even there or is it vash's imagination

-oh nvm he is here, hi livio

-"dreaming saint" may be one of the saddest nicknames he's ever gotten :c thats kind of what he is and that makes me sad

-and...there he is. not even a word, just him

-:c

chap 2:

-"overkill" huh? maybe

-you did that to choose :c you did what you could. god, he needs to hear more how him trying is enough.

-oh god hes spiraling, this is not the time :c i get it tho

-"you always give up hope so easily" and thats what he did when he chose

-its too early for me to cry, tears go back in

-wait chronica was in the nomad right? is she...yknow...

-i love that panel with meryl picking up vashs head a little bit cuz it gives me the feeling finally someone can protect him from everything, let my man rest pls

-oh shit bro you good?

-oh :c.... oh

-oh god ok its time for the cable

-oh god not the fucking feathers

-if i keep reading today im gonna start crying

chap 3:

-oh my god its the beginning

-he IS a clever bastard ill give you that

-the feathers :c

-oh my, things are happening (aka my cue to cry)

-its time knives, youre gonna fall and hit your stupid head so hard

-YES MERYL YES YOU ARE SO RIGHT MERYL

-NOT THE SCHOOL TRIPS OMG THATS ADORABLE

-...ok i get why *hes* saying that. the conflic, i think, pretty doesnt exist anymore for him but for knives is very real and really present. he may be a little stupid to understand balance and how wrong he is, but at the same time there was a reason for all of this. he committed the same mistakes humans did doing his stupid little crusade but you cant tell little knives, the one who hoped to connect with humans, that he is foolish and reigniting a conflict. its just 2 really different perspectives

chap 4:

-knives is a bastard, and an asshole and he hurt vash so much but damn it. i cant hate him, not after processing trimax for the 2nd time.

-anyway

-oh god not the cable

-VASH OMG MY SON MY MAN MY LITTLE MAN

-GET TFO LEGATO PLS, CANT A MAN BE UNSCOSNCIOUS IN PEACE???

-WOLFWOOD PLEASE TAKE THIS BASTARD AWAY AND TELL VASH HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HIM

-IT HAPPENED AGAIN, WHY DOES MY BODY REACT SO VIOLENTLY WHEN I SEE REM. ALSO WHY DID IT HAPPEN AGAIN

-also im always gonna say this is vash's mind and not ghosts cuz...idk....it doesnt feel like it. the ghosty presence feels more real in stampede but thats just me

-HIS LITTLE EYES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

-THATS WHAT I MEAN, THATS TOO MEAN FOR A GHOST

-ALSO :C

-hes so tired, hes so fucking tired

-oh wait oh shit

-im granting you nothing you bitch

-oh god knives are you good

-oh yeah hes still there

-oh ok so thats why that plan doesnt work. ok continue

-oh he looks so weird and majestic...you really have to wonder what was nightow thinking when he designed this

-they are so positive, can i have some of that? a gram should do it

-you can easily replace "because i stand with vash the stampede" with jeesus but vash the stampede is cooler im sorry

-also kudos to them for never having a "yknow what im sick of you, i never needed you" kind of arc. thanks nightow. they are married from the beginning til the end

-im...not really sure about where did vash come from but at this point it doesnt matter, im glad hes here <3

chap 5:

-vash in a fucked up mind palace, i win

-"ticket to the future" oh no

-I DIDNT NOTICE HIS ARM IS MISSING???? FUCK???

-HES UP! REJOICE

-FEATHER

-"what a cruel joke" :c

-ONE LAST TIME BABY CMON

-FUCK OK THAT WAS SCARY

-OKOKOK WOWOWOW THAT SO INTERESTING. stampede knives was like "hey this place seems nice for plants, me and my bro. lets keep it" but trimax knives want to literally yeet everything humans have touched. in his mind he can live with other plants idk, in like the middle of space? thats so interesting...

-"what is that noise" YOUR MF SIBLINGS BITCH

-....cmon man. cmon

-were you united by hatred tho? i believe some plants hated humans but not all of them

-leave your own brother alone ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

-"this is insane" it is insane, so you better fucking appreciate what hes doing rn

-AH GEESUS NO HERE IT COMES, THE FUCKING CABLE

-LEAVE HIM ALONE YO

-HURRY VASH HURRY

-"dont touch me" not even us....just him

-ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :c

-i fucking love those panels where nightow puts a lot of details and dark lines only to make the next page the softest traces seen by man

-FUCK HIS BODY NOOOOOOOOOO

-OH I FUCKING LOVE THAT PANEL. GIVES ME "ANGEL WHO JUST FUCKING FELL FROM HEAVEN" VIBES

-ALSO KNIVES SHUT UP

-[sidenote: emptiness from the signalis ost just started playing and now i want to bite someone]

-TICKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET :C

chap 6:

-THATS MY FUCKING GIRL

-shut up vash, pls shut up

-oh vash...if it was that easy. but i guess thats the point. its not easy, it will never be easy to communicate, but we have to try. more people should remember that

-"what matters, is that you communicate. that you understand the person next to you is breathing and existing" fucking beautiful nightow

-"i wonder if he'll laugh again. if he'll follow his ideals again" im so...

-oh knives hey buddy

-i hate it, i fucking do but he looks so fucking sad when the plants let him go. when they decide if he wants to keep going down the path of hate he'll have to do it alone. and in his mind i dont think he has ever being alone. it makes me sad im sorry

-using the feather is so smart actually

-oh hes here

-ITS THE SCENE FUCK HERE WE GO NO

-FINAL BATTLE TIME MFSSSSS

-YO KNIVES YOU GOOD CUZ WOW

chap 7:

-OH ON THIS ONE YOU DIDNT EVEN GET TO HEAR HER FINAL WORDS? THATS MESSED UP

-THIS IS IT HERE WE FUCKING GO

-YES PLS KNIVES CMON

-honey...no...pls. let it go, theres literally nothing left to do.

-THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME BUT STILL CMON VASH

-DONT BE A LEGATO RN KNIVES

-oh?

-OH SHIT

-[the promise is playing. the fucking promise is playing]

-YOU "WERE"???? WELL SHIT ON MY FEELINGS NIGHTOW SURE????

-KNIVES???? YO????

-WELL FUCK ME NONONONONON PLS GIVE ME REM BACK PLS PH GOD OH FUCK

-OH SHIT TF IS THAT

-SHIT

-YES PLS RUN, THATS LITERALLY WHAT YOU GUYS COULD HAVE BEEN DOING ALL THIS TIME. YOU COULD HAVE RUN AWAY TOGETHER (IN A FRATERNAL WAY)

-he is sadly a stupid idiot but HES MY STUPID IDIOT

-LIVIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THE FUCKING MVP

-NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PLS GIVE ME BACK WOLFWOOD PLS, I NEED HIM BACK. WHY CANT HIS GHOST TALK TO VASH HUH?????

-ah fuck...them flying away together it looks so beautiful

chap 8:

-HERE WE ARE HERE I AM FUCK ME

-its is a never ending song isnt it

-my man deserved to rest more than 6 months

-hey knives honey why are you saying "hes crucial for you"? is it because you have internalized that humans will keep you around if you seem to be valuable for them? do you think that if vash is crucial they wont kill him? in the many years you have lived you dont know any other ways to ask for help than guaranteeing there will be something to be gained? huh?

-that kid has to live with one of The Traumas ever huh?

-IM GONNA CHOOSE TO BELIEVE HE LIVES IN THE FUCKING TREE CUZ HIM JUST DISSAPEARING IN THE AIR? TOO SAD. TOO FUCKING SAD. I WANT HIM BACK AS WELL

-YES YOUVE DONE MORE THAN ENOUGHHHH, HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO YELL THIS *looks at publication date* right

-i dont remember your name doc but damn, you are everything.

-ALSO 1ST AN OLD LADY WITH HER GRANDDAUGHTER SAVE VASH AND THEN A DOC WITH HIS KID SAVE VASH??? SOMETHING SOMETHING ABOUT FAMILIES AND MAKING A SPACE FOR VAHS WHO LOST HIS FAMILY

-you are so fucking stupid and i love you

-also where did he get...yknow...everything

-you should do that...im begging you to do that pls. get all of that, just live peacefully pls

-MY GIRLS ARE HERE :'D

-YOU SHOULD FEEL ASHAMED, LEAVING MY GIRL MERYL LIKE THAT

-stooooop :'c my heart, this is too many ":D"

-THEIR FACE GOD I LOVE THEM SM PLS DONT LEAVE ME HERE

-GIRLS WHERE ARE YOUR GUNS LMAO XD

-the dumbest little song ever, god i could eat this man

-LINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA MY BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

-LIVIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

-ah fuck...i ended up crying again and i still dont know why :'D

what a fucking, FUCKING TRIP. this is literally one of the best things the internet has ever done. i want to hug everyone who participated on this. we did it. we fucking did it

[dogshit-enchantment]

Harvestella credits rolling... Time to give my thoughts on the game

Spoiler free thoughts:

Genuinely terrific game, I will bite the hand of whoever at squenix's marketing department declared this game to be "just a farming game" instead of the cosmic horror jrpg it actually is

Cry count was somewhere in the 15-20 range, had some of the most heart-wrenching side quests I've ever experienced in my many years of playing jrpgs. Main plot made me go "what? Hello? Huh?" Almost every cutscene, but in a good way.

A solid 10/10 game I love it to fucking pieces

Soundtrack was a genuine 11/10 I want to inject it into my brain

Characters were 10/10 love them so much

Combat was a 9/10 I didn't mind it being on the simpler side, though the final boss dragged a bit

Inventory and crafting gets a 10/10 I love how the inventory/storage works

Farming and ranching gets a 9/10 just cuz I could never get a hang of crop placement and had to axe so many plants OTL (skill issue)

Environment is a 13/10 I love the scenery and towns they're so incredible

Game performance on switch gets an 8/10 it was really solid for like 80% of the game but once u get more than 2 farm upgrades it rly starts to struggle on frame rates on the farm. Overworld also had that issue towards the very end. It was on switch tho so I'm not docking it too much for that, it did rly well (though I did suffer two crashes so OTL)

‼️‼️SPOILER ZONE‼️‼️

I will say, the ending didn't get me as teary eyed as I was expecting, but I felt it did a good job and didn't let me down. The final final boss could have had better line delivery as well as a bit of reworking of her final lines cuz by that point it felt a bit hollow to me. Though maybe I was just jaded from fighting the dream of man's end. That boss fucking sucked

(NVM loaded up my new game plus and getting the letter in the mail saying "humans, I love you" made me cry. I love you too, Omen.)

Favorite boss was by far Aria. She had incredible dialogue and I loved seeing her character getting pushed into a corner and the very human way she lashed out. So incredible I love her so much, and it felt so rewarding to give her back her diary and bringing her back from the brink of despair. She's such a relatable character.

I will say it's also incredibly funny that the minute I got to the American flag in Heine's quest I instantly put together where the plot was going, the fact that it was so warn, the way no one knew what it was, what an incredible morsel for them to give.

Favorite quest was probably a close tie between Istina and Dianthus. I loved that istina was given a "traditionally feminine" role, but was by no means treated differently for it. There was no hint of "you'd calm down if u just had a kid" type shit u see from so many pieces of media. Instead she got to have a storyline about learning how to be happy, how to help others have a happy childhood when she never got to have one. And Dianthus just... I fucking ugly cried at her quest I'm ngl. Her deciding to create art, as inspired by Emily... Makes me feel so much.

I also love that Geist went fucking crazy trying to realize his full potential with the metaphysical, meanwhile Dianthus is like "I'm simply built different" and handles it no problem.

I love Dianthus so much. She was my fave when I first picked up the demo and she stayed my fave the whole way through. Can't wait to date her in post-game.

Harvestella is so fucking good I'm gonna eat my hands

[cecebookworm]

The realization just hit me that this is the year that KOLTC ends. Like wow.

I started reading almost five years BECAUSE of this series. If I hadn’t stumbled across it in the dark corner of my elementary school library then I never would have become a reader. The entire idea of it ending never crossed my mind until now. It almost feels surreal.

Like what am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to FEEL? After 2023 there won’t be any theorizing about future plot twists, worrying about Tam having a regression arc, crying over SoKeefe moments, and losing my mind over the the memes that this fandom creates. It’ll all just kind of stop.

Sad realization. :(

Edit: Nvm, Shannon said the books not coming out this year. So oh well. I have a year of a peace to go.

[golden-bubblebee]

Bubbles watches SPN pt 6

Season 3 babey

Annotations, commentary and thoughts under the cut

NOT IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW IN FRONT OF HIM???? (Dean having sex in front of the window where sam is sitting in the car, basically watching him)

Sam, park the car somewhere elseee

Noo dean is actually sad that Ben isnt his

Why is Gordon such a little bitch spreading misinformation

Nah, they can't just do this over a police phone 'sam winchester must die' you guys know they listen in to these conversations right???

Dean: we have a magical rabbit food that brings actual luck

Also Dean: sam before we figure out how to put it back in the box, you gotta win the lotto a couple times

Oh my god I fucking love her (Bela)

FYI WINCHESTER, WORDS HURT HAHAHA

Oh my god dean you do like, an exorcism weekly

How have you not memorised it by now

Has no one told this boy how to hold a pen

OMFG HAHAHAH I THOUGHT HE WAS NOTING DOWN BULLET POINTS

Nah Nah

You are NOT telling me that this is an hansel und gretel episode

It fucking is isnt it

Shes feeding em

I really don't like Dean's suicidal attitude

Get that boy some antidepressiva

Dean youre not fucking 'going away' you will be dead, send to hell, and suffer fot all eternity

Why do I feel like Bela had an abortion

Nah what kinda notebook is that that it can be sopping wet and they can still read from it

DEAN YOU MASSIVE ASSHOLE

DEAN BEING SUCH A DAD TEACHING SAM HOW TO FIX THE CAR

Also very heartbreaking cuz its him saying goodbye

OH MY GOD ITS MY FIRST SUPERNAT SPECIAL

Omg teenage dean is so very much Dean

'Who do we move around so much'

*uses the same childhood home set as last time*

Oh dean my sweet deeply traumatised boy

I appreciate that the anti santa doesnt eat kids

Just leaves em traumatised for the rest of their life

AMEN TO SAM TEACHING THE FOLKS THE TRUTH ABT SANTA

Oh my god obsessed with the pagan gods

Dean is being killed and goes 'you want me to say fudge instead of fuck? Fine!"

Obsessed with them

Also, how have I only now noticed the very comical sound of 'hitting someone' they use

Nooo not little baby dean lying about their father for christmas

100% john did not show up

Where did baby dean get the money

Welp nvm, some kids round the block having a real sad xmas

Now my bad memory wants to know if hes really been wearing that necklace the whole show, or just now. Also couldn't see what it was

Bc to me it looked like a rotissery chicken, but Im taking a wild guess That that's wrong

NOT SAM PUTTING A FRIGGING ARBRE MAGIQUE IN THE XMAS TREE

THREE OF THEM OMFG THAT MUST SMELL HORRID HAHAHHAA

Nah getting your brother porn mags as a christmas gift is another example of unhealthy boundaries

That reaction (to getting the mags) is so un-sam like it's upsetting and funny at once

IM NOT CRYING UR CRYING

I really need Dean and Ruby to have some real good hate sex

Bela really said 'you called, sam?'

This will be too funny if dean is round the corner and walks in now

Nah my guy is either dreaming or on the dream root

NOOO

Having dean yell 'sam wake up' translate in the dream to Bela moaning 'oh sam' is actually so rat of the producers

DEAN YOU DONT INQUIRE AFTER YOUR BROTHERS WET DREAM

Not Sam needing to check his boner status first💀

Sam is killing me

Dean literally dreaming of a normal life breaks my heaaartyy

Why did seeing Dean like this genuinly make me happy

Crying at these sandwich prices

WHAT THE FUCK

Dean Death count: 6

OH MY GOD ITS A TIMELOOP EPISOOOODEEEEEEEE

I eat that shit uppp

DEAN DEATH COUNT: 7

WHAT TVE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK

Did not see that coming

They really yeeted that boi

Dean death count: 8

I fucking knew he was gonna choke on that sausage

Dean death count:9

HAHAHAH THE SCREAM FROM THE SHOWER

Dean death count: 10

He gets poisoneeed

Dean death count:11

IM DYING THE AXE SCENEEE

12

Dean death count: 105 (as told by sam)

106

The music played but dean didnt die??? I feel like a confused pavlovs dog not getting a treat

107

WHAY DO YOU MEAN SIX MONTHS LATER

Omg the trunk got ✨fancy✨

I dont like sam turning into John dickchester

It makes my heart go auch

Wait??? Did he just release sam??? No no I need to see them kill the trickster pr I wont trust anyhting anymore every

I'll be watching the next episode waiting for the trick

Surely sam has some absolute paranoia now

Ellaaaa! (From Lucifer. In spn known as Nancy)

I will not lie, the fbi guy? Love him. I need a spinoff of him going insane tryna catch our boys

Shoutout to Sam for knowing the ex-demon (what do you call it?? Extorsion?? Extrusions? Excursion???) Out of his head

'Alright don't be such a wuss' MA'AM YOUR BROTHER JUST GOT -SHOT-

Like i know we saw him tying up his own bullet wounds in the trickster world, but Sam be so fr rn

Nooo I liked fbi guy

FBI GUY!!!! WAGGING MY TAIL LIKE A PUPPYYY'

I uh. I shot the sherrif'

'But you didn't shoot the deputy' HAHAHAHAHHA DEAAAAN LEARN HOW TO READ THE ROOM JAHAH

I have strong suspiciouns of our Dear Nancy ella being possesed

Ruby is absolutely growing on me omfg i love her

The fact that none of the demons killed ruby for helping them makes me think shes insanely powerful

'When this is over, I'm gonna have so much sex. ... But not with you' HAHAHHAHAHAHAH NANCY I LOVE YOU

LITLITH NO IM ENMOTIONALLY ATTACHED NOW

WHY AM I CRYING OVER NANCY I BARELY KNEW HER

Not the crappy gostbusters song HAHAH

'Gostfacers, we face de ghosts when you do not!'

THE FAKE SLOWMO WALK

Please tell me people ship these two

The fact that they had to specify they could have sex with girls makes them very shippable

I love her

So many great female characters why can none of them stick

Omg I would so watch 'the ghostfacers'

Love how theyre all like 'shh be quiet' and winchesters pull up music blaring

He's so real for this

Dean death count: 108

[what-if-i-just-did]

Guilt & Revenge: Emotional Angst

Whumptober, Day 20: Emotional Angst

Guilt & Revenge Masterlist

Wrote this and then almost forgot to post it. Whoops! Luckily I remembered. Also I added a really cool banner to the masterlist today which I made myself.. several weeks ago, but nvm that. I actually love this chapter so much.. hope ya'll enjoy too, and lmk to be added to the taglist!

TWs: long-term captivity, being trapped on a boat during a storm, forced partial starvation, fear of death, and mentions of crying, puking, dehydration, abandonment issues/Stockholm Syndrome, and drowning

Amber curled up tighter in the corner furthest from the door. The boat wildly swayed, and he had to stop himself from crying. He could hear the waves outside, crashing into the side of the boat, he could hear the thunder. It had been a very long time since he’d even noticed the rocking of the boat, having gotten used to it, but now it sickened him enough that he thought he might actually puke. He wished he was on his bed, but he’d folded it up to the wall and secured it when the storm started. At first he’d been nervously pacing, but that made him feel like he was about to faint, so he’d stopped.

It’s been at least half an hour, and more than the fear, …Amber felt overwhelmingly alone. There was nobody helping him, nobody telling him what to do, nobody keeping him safe. He was alone, locked in a boat in a storm and he couldn’t tell how bad it was. All he could do was whimper when he heard thunder, hope it wasn’t as bad as it sounded and felt, and sit there in the dark. 

He hoped he wouldn’t puke. That would suck. He was fed just yesterday.

Was anyone gonna come for him? He’d give anything right now for the sound of the approaching speedboat. For Mercedes’ footsteps down the stairs. 

Would they really leave him there? Amber tried to convince himself that they cared enough about their revenge, or at least the boat, to come check up on him. How long would the storm last? How bad was it? Was there lightning? Would they even be able to use the speedboat if the waves were really as rough as they sounded? It could last for hours, or days, and he could be stuck here on his own.

Startling himself, Amber realized with a shock that he missed his captors. That he wanted them with him, that he wanted the comforting voice of Mercedes guiding him through this new, unintentional, torture. He was distressed with this realization, and disgusted with himself. Yet, the sudden awareness of these feelings didn’t make them dissipate, and he sat there uncomfortably, slightly being swung against the walls in his little corner by the harsh rocking of the boat. He didn’t even notice the tears slipping across his cheeks.

While Amber was distracted, another thought wormed itself into his head; what if they leave me here alone forever?

What if he was left alone in this cell until he died of dehydration or starvation. 

Fuck, he felt like he was going insane.

Mostly it scared him that he hadn’t realized before that he.. what? Had Stockholm Syndrome? He didn’t think he did.. right? He just.. fuck. He didn’t know.

It had to have been hours now, right? Nobody was coming. The storm was still raging, and he couldn’t see anything. His eyes were used to the dark by now, but he still wished for windows. He’d be able to count the seconds between the lightning and the thunder. If there was even lightning. He was assuming there was lightning, he just couldn’t see it. 

He stared wishfully at his bed, secured against the wall. It wasn’t comfortable by any means, but it was better than the corner. It just wasn’t safe to have it open, let alone sit on it, with the boat rocking so badly. 

At least he couldn’t hear the clock over the rain and the wind and the waves. The antagonizing ticking was drowned out by the sounds of the storm. It would almost be soothing to listen to if it didn’t terrify him so much. He could tell by the sounds and the rocking that it wasn’t good but… just how bad was it? Could the boat sink?

He’d be stuck. He’d drown, no doubt. Petrified little sobs escaped him, and he buried his head in his knees as his shoulders trembled. He didn’t wanna die. Amber didn’t wanna die.

He didn’t really wanna live either. Not if life just meant more pain, isolation, starvation. But he’d bear it anyway.

He had no choice.

[femmmie]

Nvm me I'm just crying in thr corner about Link and Midna T_T

[djputin]

so. that post-endwalker manderville weapons quest. its task for you to complete. three (3) manderium meteorite ores.

i only have... one (1) manderium meteorite ores.

Hell. oh well at least i can practice more against Cagnazzo now that the new dungeon is out. :T

...while I attempt to get all of the dungeon gear for an upgrade and also slowly. very slowly. get the remaining 1000 tomestones of astronomy i need to finish this gods-be-damned thing.

i’m gonna go cry in a corner. ‘scuse me

EDIT AS OF 1/28/23: nvm i got the other two pretty fast lmao

manderville bow get!!! yes my main WoL is solely focused as a bard as far as non-crafting/gathering jobs go. hush i just like it best for him okay.